I should never date again for the rest of my life

I feel like I shouldn't date for the rest of my life. The reason being that growing up my mother was in school, so I pretty much never saw her even though we lived together. I also truly believed in my heart that she didn't love me. This caused me to look for women to love me and have time for me. Unfortunately I only seemed to attract women who didn't have time for me. Whether it was a subconscious thing or just how things have evolved to be nowadays I am not sure. This has resulted in depression that has only grown deeper and deeper as the days go by. I feel like I have gotten to a point were relationships are extremely harmful to my well-being and I should remain alone for the sake of my health.